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March 18, 2008

On being old

Filed under: Uncategorized — nurliyana @ 2:36 pm
Last week a friend of mine wish me happy 23rd belated birthday and was asking this question which goes like “how does it feel being old”? I was taken aback for i do not consider myself as old.Maybe she was trying to ask “how does it feel to be A YEAR OLDER” i guess..hehe.But then again i felt that her question was interesting and i ponder upon it.Old age, i decided,is a gift.

I am now probably, first time in my life,the person that i have always wanted to be.I would never would have trade my amazing friends, loving family and wonderful life for less grey hair or a flatter belly.As i grew matured,year by year, i’ve become more kind and less critical of myself.Ive become my own friend.I am entitled to a treat, to be messy,to be extravagant.I will dance to the tunes that i love and if I, at the same time wish to weep over a lost love…i will.I know i am sometimes forgetful, but then again some of life is just as well forgotten, but eventually i will remeber the important ones.

Sure over the years my heart have been broken.How can your heart not break if you lose a loved one or when you see a child suffers.But broken hearts gives us strength,compassion and understanding.A heart never been broken is pristine and sterile and will never know the joy of being imperfect.I will definitely want to live long enough to have my hair turning grey and have my youthful laughs be forever etched into deep grooves on my face..

As you get older, it is easier to be positive.You care less about what other people think.I don’t question myself anymore, i’ve even earned the right to be wrong.

So to answer my friend’s question. I like being older as years goes by.It has set me free.I like the person i have become.I am not going to live forever, but while i am still here,i will not waste time lamenting what could have been or worrying what will be.And i will eat dessert every single day (if i feel like it)

 

 

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